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Mariah Carey is hilarious.
Just watch her newest fragrance commercial, lmao.
Just watch her newest fragrance commercial, lmao.
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The years have been short
But the days were long
26 November 2009 @ 12:45 am
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, and for the first time, I am actually really excited to be social with my whole family.
When I was younger, I had my cousins Lauren and Kimberly to play with and to plan secret attacks on the boys: Josh, Matt, Tre, Gregory, and Joey. But when Uncle Bill divorced Aunt Linda, we saw much less of Lauren and Kimberly. And eventually Josh stopped coming to family functions for reasons only teenagers understand, I guess. Matt followed along Josh's footsteps, and eventually Tre did as well. That left me separated by all the other cousins by many years in age. So I took to playing with the younger kids, Amanda, Elizabeth, Lexy, and Zach. But they've started growing up, to the point where I was no longer the "cool" older cousin. And the older cousins, Jimmy and Steven, were too much older to be reachable.
I was just awkward. Wishing I had my "friends" with me. Unable to communicate to my extended family. But something really cool happened tonight that made me see a change. I legitimately had good conversation with everyone. Yes, even the aunts and uncles. Everyone seemed to be so agreeable. And almost everyone was there! It was so neat! And tomorrow Lauren and Kimberly are going to be there with Aunt Linda and I'm just so excited.
Gram is excited, too. She's getting pretty old and she knows it, so it's wonderful how close she is to all of us. The two of us were in the kitchen when she told me how happy it made her that all of her children and grandchildren were so close. Seeing how blissful it made her, I couldn't help but promise her that I would make sure it stayed that way. She hugged me so hard and started crying. It was beautiful. And I guess that's what I have to be thankful for. And I guess that's why, for the first time, I am really excited to be at Thanksgiving dinner with my whole family.
<3
When I was younger, I had my cousins Lauren and Kimberly to play with and to plan secret attacks on the boys: Josh, Matt, Tre, Gregory, and Joey. But when Uncle Bill divorced Aunt Linda, we saw much less of Lauren and Kimberly. And eventually Josh stopped coming to family functions for reasons only teenagers understand, I guess. Matt followed along Josh's footsteps, and eventually Tre did as well. That left me separated by all the other cousins by many years in age. So I took to playing with the younger kids, Amanda, Elizabeth, Lexy, and Zach. But they've started growing up, to the point where I was no longer the "cool" older cousin. And the older cousins, Jimmy and Steven, were too much older to be reachable.
I was just awkward. Wishing I had my "friends" with me. Unable to communicate to my extended family. But something really cool happened tonight that made me see a change. I legitimately had good conversation with everyone. Yes, even the aunts and uncles. Everyone seemed to be so agreeable. And almost everyone was there! It was so neat! And tomorrow Lauren and Kimberly are going to be there with Aunt Linda and I'm just so excited.
Gram is excited, too. She's getting pretty old and she knows it, so it's wonderful how close she is to all of us. The two of us were in the kitchen when she told me how happy it made her that all of her children and grandchildren were so close. Seeing how blissful it made her, I couldn't help but promise her that I would make sure it stayed that way. She hugged me so hard and started crying. It was beautiful. And I guess that's what I have to be thankful for. And I guess that's why, for the first time, I am really excited to be at Thanksgiving dinner with my whole family.
<3
Current Location: home
Current Mood: content
content20 November 2009 @ 12:43 pm
I wish that:
1.) My laundry was done so that I could leave the house and go practice.
2.) I hadn't lost my water bottle.
3.) Last night's performance had gone a little better.
4.) I had another awesome composer biography to read.
5.) My neighbor Dan's dad hadn't died.
6.) I weren't being such a loner lately.
7.) There was an orchestra concert happening every night.
8.) I could go back to Salzburg.
I think that's all right now.
1.) My laundry was done so that I could leave the house and go practice.
2.) I hadn't lost my water bottle.
3.) Last night's performance had gone a little better.
4.) I had another awesome composer biography to read.
5.) My neighbor Dan's dad hadn't died.
6.) I weren't being such a loner lately.
7.) There was an orchestra concert happening every night.
8.) I could go back to Salzburg.
I think that's all right now.
30 October 2009 @ 04:20 pm
I'm so obviously wasting time right now. I think this is due to the onset of some sinus problems. I'm all drowsy and whatnot.
ALL I WANT TO DO IS PLAY VIDEO GAMES.
SERIOUSLY.
Come on, Mario Kart? Final Fantasy VIII? Yes, please! This might be the last time in my life that I will have this much free time. I know I've been on this kick to "better myself as a musician" by practicing a lot and reading musicological stuff in my free time, but I think it's hitting me that once I am a REAL teacher, employed and on salary and everything, I will not want to be playing video games.
Maybe this is a desperate attempt to hold onto childhood and forget responsibility. It doesn't matter because we don't have any good games here, anyway. Well, whatever. I'll go try to get some real work done. I just know it's going to be difficult, becaue I don't have anything actually due for a long time. Mehhhhhh school.
tired26 October 2009 @ 12:55 am
Women are amazing! I've been doing nonstop SAI stuff recently and sometimes I just look around at my sisters and think of how unique we all are, yet in our uniqueness we are each so unbelievably beautiful. I believe that all women are stunningly beautiful. And women are constantly thinking of others. They do so much giving and giving and giving, and very little taking. Seriously, we are amazing!
Anyways. I have so much stuff to get done, and yet I continue to work on the least important stuff on my to-do list. For instance, I know I need to be more proficient in guitar and piano, but that is a long-term goal, and I often let practicing those instruments take the place of doing homework that's due tomorrow. It's a really good thing I don't have anything until 3pm tomorrow, because I can definitely use the entire day to work on stuff.
All right. Lots to talk about, but sleep is necessary right now. Lmao, I already have Amadeus in to fall asleep to. I'm so weird sometimes. No, all the time.
Anyways. I have so much stuff to get done, and yet I continue to work on the least important stuff on my to-do list. For instance, I know I need to be more proficient in guitar and piano, but that is a long-term goal, and I often let practicing those instruments take the place of doing homework that's due tomorrow. It's a really good thing I don't have anything until 3pm tomorrow, because I can definitely use the entire day to work on stuff.
All right. Lots to talk about, but sleep is necessary right now. Lmao, I already have Amadeus in to fall asleep to. I'm so weird sometimes. No, all the time.
Current Location: 1018
Current Mood: optimistic
optimistic16 October 2009 @ 01:54 am
Can we just reflect for a moment on the sheer volume of journal entries I manage to produce? Sometimes I sit and think about it -- I've had this journal for years, and I am still so faithful.
Okay that's done. Now it's 2:00am and I am awake. I think the only bad things about being awake right now are that 1.) I am successfully throwing my sleep schedule off AGAIN, and 2.) I am growing hungrier by the second.
A good thing about being awake right now is that I have the strong urge to write in my LJ about the awesomeness of my day. I think one of the main factors in its awesomeness was my own personal triumph of not letting my splitting headache and annoying stomach ache get in the way of normal stuff. In fact, despite the maladies I feel like I can transform myself into a sponge at will, and soak up as much awesomeness as possible.
By awesomeness I mean the huge amount of beauty and knowledge everyone and everything is capable of producing. Music, especially, is something that has such potential for wonder and inspiration. Just a quick snipit:
"You must give each note life, your life...You must sacrifice yourself to music... Then you will make it live...Then you will be able to make other people understand music." Nadia Boulanger.
Did you get that?! That's what I want to do all of the time. I want to talk about music. I want to perform music. I want to listen to music. And most especially, I want to learn about music and teach others what I know.
I just can't even explain it! I have to go. I have to go write lesson plans, and read composer biographies, and practice, and listen to Mahler's symphonies. I just have to!
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Current Mood: 
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hungry05 October 2009 @ 07:48 pm
Today, I was driving when this jerk cut me off. I wanted to honk my horn at him but for some reason I don't like honking my horn at people. The driver next to me looked me right in the eye then honked at the guy that cut me off and smiled. I'm glad others will do my dirty work for me. MLIA
29 September 2009 @ 06:39 pm
DESPERATELY want to turn on the travel channel right now instead of studying. Like, this is taking every ounce of concentration I have.
I blame the Chinese food! Seriously! Last night I had Chinese food and managed to get absolutely NOTHING done besides watch 4 episodes of Sex and the City. And now tonight, I reheat my leftovers for dinner and damnit, I do not want to do anything.
And studying was going so well!! I've only been at it for an hour and a half, and that includes a break to talk to Jenny on the phone!
I blame the Chinese food! Seriously! Last night I had Chinese food and managed to get absolutely NOTHING done besides watch 4 episodes of Sex and the City. And now tonight, I reheat my leftovers for dinner and damnit, I do not want to do anything.
And studying was going so well!! I've only been at it for an hour and a half, and that includes a break to talk to Jenny on the phone!
annoyed05 August 2009 @ 10:34 am
Some things that are making me smile wide this morning:
1. The Shins
2. Dunkin Donuts coffee
3. Three-year-old children who make my life wonderful
4. Accidentally reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
5. The thought of going to Gainesville in 3 days
6. Benjamin Bailey on Cash Cab
7. 500 Days of Summer
8. Feeling Pretty
9. The thought of going to Disney World with a bunch of awesome people
10. Mozart, aahahahahaha!
11. Music in general
12. God's love/knowing He is here for me right now
13. School of Rock
14. The thought of buying new shoes
15. The beach
Yeah, I'm starting to notice that acting on all of these little instances in the day that make me smile is making it easier to take in all of the hard stuff of life. Because it's really true: No one has it easy. Everyone has problems. You sort your own problems into what can be solved, and what can't. The ones you can't solve have to be forgotten about, because worry will do nothing but give you a stomach ache. The problems that you have to fix, however, are what life experiences are made of.
1. The Shins
2. Dunkin Donuts coffee
3. Three-year-old children who make my life wonderful
4. Accidentally reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
5. The thought of going to Gainesville in 3 days
6. Benjamin Bailey on Cash Cab
7. 500 Days of Summer
8. Feeling Pretty
9. The thought of going to Disney World with a bunch of awesome people
10. Mozart, aahahahahaha!
11. Music in general
12. God's love/knowing He is here for me right now
13. School of Rock
14. The thought of buying new shoes
15. The beach
Yeah, I'm starting to notice that acting on all of these little instances in the day that make me smile is making it easier to take in all of the hard stuff of life. Because it's really true: No one has it easy. Everyone has problems. You sort your own problems into what can be solved, and what can't. The ones you can't solve have to be forgotten about, because worry will do nothing but give you a stomach ache. The problems that you have to fix, however, are what life experiences are made of.
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thoughtful31 July 2009 @ 07:27 pm
So I have a pretty big smile on my face for the following reasons:
1.) Memories of being an RA 2 summers ago.
2.) Jason Mraz's song "I'm Yours" is on in the next room over.
3.) Reno 911!
4.) My awesome new glasses.
5.) Memories of Munich.
6.) Plans for Disney World on August 19th.
7.) Mexican Night when I return to Gainesville.
8.) The awesome end table Kate and I found today.
9.) Berlioz.
10.) Classical music on public radio.
11.) John Mayer.
12.) Oreos.
13.) Returning to Gainesville.
14.) Paul Simon.
15.) Vegetarianism.
16.) It's Always Sunny in Philidelphia.
17.) Ace Ventura, Pet Detective.
18.) My awesome Facebook statuses.
19.) Love, in general, because it is all around.
1.) Memories of being an RA 2 summers ago.
2.) Jason Mraz's song "I'm Yours" is on in the next room over.
3.) Reno 911!
4.) My awesome new glasses.
5.) Memories of Munich.
6.) Plans for Disney World on August 19th.
7.) Mexican Night when I return to Gainesville.
8.) The awesome end table Kate and I found today.
9.) Berlioz.
10.) Classical music on public radio.
11.) John Mayer.
12.) Oreos.
13.) Returning to Gainesville.
14.) Paul Simon.
15.) Vegetarianism.
16.) It's Always Sunny in Philidelphia.
17.) Ace Ventura, Pet Detective.
18.) My awesome Facebook statuses.
19.) Love, in general, because it is all around.
30 July 2009 @ 02:46 pm
I know I just posted yesterday morning, but these days seem so long I feel like it has been a week already.
What's the update, then? Well, officially nine days until I return to Gainesville, and that is a good thought. This countdown has become part of a perpetual cycle that is my life. Let me explain. There are three different states in which I can constantly classify myself.
1.) Waiting for something exciting to happen.
2.) Living in an exciting event.
3.) Winding down from an exciting event.
It's always been like this! As a kid, I waited to move out of my house until I finally did, and soaked in that wonderful bliss of freedom for a good year or two, when the novelty was finally worn off. From there were many little things that would hold me in an impatient state of mind until they came to pass, when I would have to unravel and analyze the whole situation until something else would come along: my recital, going on retreats, going to Salzburg, and now, returning to Gainesville.
I don't know if this is good or bad, because I'm sure most people do this same exact thing. But I know one thing is for sure: I don't want to define my life by what happens to me; I'd rather let my own thoughts and ideals be the forefront when I look back and summarize.
I could go on, but the detailed discussion involves way too many things that go in circles. So what else? Ah, yes. I've finally become a real musician and updated my music library to an impressive size. I've always had a problem with that...not knowing where to get music from and so just listening to the same stuff over and over again. Once more the public library comes to the rescue!! I never realized you could borrow CDs and copy them into your computer!!! Heck yes!!! So now I'm enthralled because I can have real classical music on my iTunes, not crappy recordings of old school concerts. And it makes my drive to Gainesville that much more exciting, have a crap ton of new music to listen to. I must say I am QUITE enthralled.
And now! Now I am off to get new glasses. Doing this by myself is almost a terrifying prospect...I'll have to wear them every day so they have to be PERFECT.
What's the update, then? Well, officially nine days until I return to Gainesville, and that is a good thought. This countdown has become part of a perpetual cycle that is my life. Let me explain. There are three different states in which I can constantly classify myself.
1.) Waiting for something exciting to happen.
2.) Living in an exciting event.
3.) Winding down from an exciting event.
It's always been like this! As a kid, I waited to move out of my house until I finally did, and soaked in that wonderful bliss of freedom for a good year or two, when the novelty was finally worn off. From there were many little things that would hold me in an impatient state of mind until they came to pass, when I would have to unravel and analyze the whole situation until something else would come along: my recital, going on retreats, going to Salzburg, and now, returning to Gainesville.
I don't know if this is good or bad, because I'm sure most people do this same exact thing. But I know one thing is for sure: I don't want to define my life by what happens to me; I'd rather let my own thoughts and ideals be the forefront when I look back and summarize.
I could go on, but the detailed discussion involves way too many things that go in circles. So what else? Ah, yes. I've finally become a real musician and updated my music library to an impressive size. I've always had a problem with that...not knowing where to get music from and so just listening to the same stuff over and over again. Once more the public library comes to the rescue!! I never realized you could borrow CDs and copy them into your computer!!! Heck yes!!! So now I'm enthralled because I can have real classical music on my iTunes, not crappy recordings of old school concerts. And it makes my drive to Gainesville that much more exciting, have a crap ton of new music to listen to. I must say I am QUITE enthralled.
And now! Now I am off to get new glasses. Doing this by myself is almost a terrifying prospect...I'll have to wear them every day so they have to be PERFECT.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: contemplative
contemplativeCurrent Music: berlioz -- symphonie fantastique, mvt. 5
29 July 2009 @ 08:59 am
So you might know this, but I took out a very big loan this summer to pay for Salzburg. I was all super-worried about doing that, simply because it was quite a bit of money for a trip that was (in my mind) really excessive and I had only signed up for it on a whim.
Anyhow, the loan company keeps sending me all these emails about different contests you can enter to bring down your loan. Most of them are ridiculous, but I got one a little while ago about a video competition. Very simple: Enter a 5-minute video about ways you save money for college, win $5000. And Gregory just got a Flip camera that he said I could borrow. So I wanted to go over some of my ideas for the video!!
Ways I Save Money for College
1.) Entertainment:
a. Beach (free), wearing a bikini I didn't have to pay for
b. Library free DVDs.
2.)Shopping:
a. Garage sale furniture and dishes
b. Buying clothes for school marked down to $3
3.) Only drinking tapwater and convincing my family to do the same
4.) Using coupons
5.) Saving all my loose change in a piggy bank
6.) Turning the air up to 90 degrees when I'm not home
7.) Keeping the lights off that I'm not using
8.) Taking military showers to save water
9.) And last but not least...living at home!!!
So if anyone else has any ideas, I would greatly appreciate them! I get the feeling that I definitely don't have 5 minutes of film yet, so whatever you can think of would help a lot!!!
EDIT: I thought of another one! This summer I gave up Starbucks and have been making my own coffee beverages! And they taste just as good! Ahahaah.
Anyhow, the loan company keeps sending me all these emails about different contests you can enter to bring down your loan. Most of them are ridiculous, but I got one a little while ago about a video competition. Very simple: Enter a 5-minute video about ways you save money for college, win $5000. And Gregory just got a Flip camera that he said I could borrow. So I wanted to go over some of my ideas for the video!!
Ways I Save Money for College
1.) Entertainment:
a. Beach (free), wearing a bikini I didn't have to pay for
b. Library free DVDs.
2.)Shopping:
a. Garage sale furniture and dishes
b. Buying clothes for school marked down to $3
3.) Only drinking tapwater and convincing my family to do the same
4.) Using coupons
5.) Saving all my loose change in a piggy bank
6.) Turning the air up to 90 degrees when I'm not home
7.) Keeping the lights off that I'm not using
8.) Taking military showers to save water
9.) And last but not least...living at home!!!
So if anyone else has any ideas, I would greatly appreciate them! I get the feeling that I definitely don't have 5 minutes of film yet, so whatever you can think of would help a lot!!!
EDIT: I thought of another one! This summer I gave up Starbucks and have been making my own coffee beverages! And they taste just as good! Ahahaah.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: excited
excited28 July 2009 @ 09:27 am
WHY IS EVERYONE FROM HIGH SCHOOL GETTING MARRIED AND HAVING BABIES?!?! THIS IS RIDICULOUS! I AM ONLY TWENTY-ONE YEARS OLD AND ALL OF THE PEOPLE I KNOW ARE VERY CLOSE TO ME IN AGE, AND YET THEY ARE STILL GETTING PREGNANT AND MARRIED ALL OVER THE PLACE!!!!!
TWENTY-ONE! OUR LIVES ARE JUST BEGINNING!!!! WHAT ON EARTH IS THE RUSH???
IF YOU CAN'T TELL, THIS IS ALL STARTING TO FREAK ME OUT QUITE A BIT!!!
TWENTY-ONE! OUR LIVES ARE JUST BEGINNING!!!! WHAT ON EARTH IS THE RUSH???
IF YOU CAN'T TELL, THIS IS ALL STARTING TO FREAK ME OUT QUITE A BIT!!!
14 February 2008 @ 12:24 am
I've asked this before.
What are your thoughts on abortion? Explain.
Thank you.
What are your thoughts on abortion? Explain.
Thank you.
11 April 2007 @ 05:40 pm
Ehhhhhh
I have to get to the library before it closes at 8 to get an article for a paper I have to write before tomorrow.
I reallyyyyyy don't want to go to the library. My feet hurt :P
I have to get to the library before it closes at 8 to get an article for a paper I have to write before tomorrow.
I reallyyyyyy don't want to go to the library. My feet hurt :P
14 January 2007 @ 03:34 pm
